Sanity

Fighting the mental state

Being strong when you barely have strength is a lot to take

Conscious of some of my flaws in my eyes

Looking through your eyes I can’t believe the actions I did and the perception that was given from me to you- I look at with grimace

Contemplating my decisions

On the brink of keeping my sanity

Sometimes it is hard to face reality

How strong must one be when my shoulders carry a heavy burden and all of life’s circumstances haven’t yet been revealed to me?

Impossible to do it by myself

I feel it coming on now

My mental state has surely unraveled;

Trying to keep it composed

with everything going on in life how is one suppose to uphold the moral and ethical codes?

Everything is on my plate

Tell God I don’t feel suited to carry on all this weight

Feel like gouging out my eyes

Feel like crying because of the pain inside

I’m about to break

I’m about to lose my mind

Thoughts going a million miles an hour doing overtime

Dizzy spells

This place is hell

How is one suppose to bear all the trials without fail?

Keep going

Keep trying

I’m not dead yet- Is that the only way I can be assured? Ok bet

With this weapon I call my mind-

it will drive me crazy if I don’t get a break and can’t be blind to the mischievous workings of my mind

Gotta push these thoughts aside

I know one day I’ll be fine

Even though there may be some truth to the riddles of my thoughts

Let me help someone who knows the similarities and maybe they can be a positive outlook to help me connect the dots

What? You thought this poem would be sad? I’m sorry to disappoint, I’m sure you’re mad.

Get up and keep fighting- even if you lost everything and everyone you held dear to yor heart, you’re still alive and breathing

Teach others and be a testimony

Help others since you know what it’s like to be helpless

Do it selflessly and without discretion

You’re not the only one that feels the struggles of everyday life….

Find a support group if you have to-

Don’t let negative emotions get you entangled in a web of severe depression, where you’re doing unforgivable transgressions, and making bad impressions

Class is in session

We all need progression

Let your testimony be your confession

And do it with a joyous expression

The Holy Ghost is with us

So be blessed you have another day of your life for your testimony that you can discuss